Burn the Present for the Past?

From those who read my last post, I burnt a pretty significant bridge last weekend, read the post for more info, but you ever think maybe everything happens for a reason? Maybe that bad things happen in your life so it can bring in the good things? Do you believe in fate?

Well I don't. I know great lead up. I believe that nothing is ever predetermined, everything that happens in life is just a product of probability, which many of you may refer to as chance. It's only when something with such a small probability of happening happens, do we disbelieve it is only chance. Well it is, but what do you think is the probability that I start a big fight with someone so close to myself, during a celebration of getting my life back together and focusing, something that said someone has been hoping I do for a long time, and who had shown more joy from my successes than I ever had.

Then what is the probability on top of such an event that I have a small dispute with my friend I celebrated with that night, causing myself to go to the gym by myself for the first time in over four month last night, only to see the first girl I ever dated (about ten years ago) at said gym, and to not only see her but almost physically run into her, and lock eyes for what seemed to be forever. As I was focused on finishing my workout, we just smiled and acknowledged one another. The probability of such a random series of events presenting themselves in such a convenient order seemed infinitely small. The compulsion to invite her out for a coffee was unavoidable. to my dismay, the compulsion only presented itself as I left the gym...

Now we look to the probability of her responding to a simple Facebook message, so I presume the new question is will she say yes?

A Trip Through Delusions of Grandure

Being missing in action for three days as I claim to make this blog a daily endeavor I see could look bad, but allow me to fill you in on the past thirty six hours.

I had truly kicked myself into gear, limitless style, minus the life threatening drug ofcourse. I work off a minimulistic amount of sleep over the past few days. Going to classes, something I had never become accustomed to, and found myself participating. I had the urge to complete my work. I spent the two days going over as much of the content as I could. I caught up in all my classes in under three days, and plan to continue on this determination drive, with a predicted completion of all readings and notes in less than two months. The outlook looked unstoppable.

Now this is all amazing in terms of school, but to my dismay I have let my love for music, gaming, and all things fun, including women, take a backseat in my life. Not too happy about it either. So as I plan on getting ahead in all my classes, and will have the time to progress as I will, I am going to be setting up specific times weekly where all I do is sit in my "studio" and work on my own tracks, make mixes, set up events/parties, or even just working on setting up contracts for new talent. With this new mind set of mine, I actually do feel limitless.

Now back to what I have actually been upto. Well besides the whole catching up on all things school for the weekend, lets just say I figured I deserved to celebrate my new found motivation, I would end my old ways with a big bang. Going all out on one big party. Getting profusely drunk and partying with friends. Surprisingly as a DJ I actually don't enjoy the club scene too much, but who cared, I was drunk, and wanted to have fun. If I were to recommend anything, and I mean anything, it would be to lock your phone.

I am normally a very happy drunk. I have been punched in the face during a party once, everyone grabbed me so that I didn't beat the shit out of the guy, I had no reaction, the guy was being dumb, I had no reason to start a fight with him, if he wanted to punch me, I was going to be the bigger man and not fight back. Even when I am drunk, I am not violent, I don't do too many stupid things, I am a "responsible" drunk. That being said, give me enough alcohol, built up frustration with a female counterpart, and a cellphone, and you got yourself the most volitile, shit storm of a drunk texting situation you could conjure up. Saying stuff for the sole reasoning of pissing her off, even going as far to call her a gold digger, knowing every time I have done so, she flips out. I may have said a little too much in the conversation with her, but when you deal with someone so closed off from the realm of emotions, saying things that would normally make a person do a double take of you, was more like throwing darts at a blank dartboard with her. So we could say I burnt a bridge, but its not that big of a deal, because when I come along with a hoverboard, I am sure she'll want a ride (thats a metaphor for those who were wondering).

Day 1 - Living with siblings again

So for those of you who don't know, I come from a big family, three sisters and a brother. I am the youngest at twenty one. Recently two of my siblings moved back home, my brother a year my senior and my sister in her late twenties. Moving back for totally different reasons but coming back home was the right decision for both. Only thing is after living at home without either one around since the start of my University career, I have become accustomed to the solitude that being the only child at home brings. Now that they are both back it is slowly killing me.

My brother, arguably my best friend as well has finished his schooling and is now starting up his company. Since their operations are not dependent on the position of the sun, I find he is up most nights, all night. Which usually wouldn't be any issue if it wasn't for him keeping me up at night. Going to bed at 6am just to awake two hours later for class is very trying. Luckily after having a talk with him, he is currently working on the issue.

Now for my sister. I love her, but she is insistent on socializing, something I have very little time for trying to get my company up and running and going to school full time. Simple things like going out for dinner seem like a waste of time and funds to me. I could go out and eat at some restaurant, pay for the food, and spend my time there 'socializing' or I could grab something to munch on while I right note or do readings for class. Shopping is another issue I find with her. She is a female, no sexism intended, but she loves to shop, and I find the very idea of mall shopping to be a waste of time, go into one store look around, try stuff of, leave without buying anything. If the shopping process was my like going to a dentist, where you go with set goals and get in and out as efficiently as possible, I could go shopping, but that seems to never be the case (unless my brother and I go, we are pretty efficient shoppers).

That's all that has been on my mind as of late, since I haven't had the time to work on my music much, as my goal this semester is to get a 4.0 as I almost got kicked out first semester. Yes, I fucked up last semester, spend all my time on socializing, video games, and getting my company up and going. Anyways, since I spend all my time at a computer writing notes, reading, or doing assignments, I do truly believe I can make this daily (assuming something of interest occurs during my day)

Daily Blog

So I figured since I am working so much on school now, as I need to improve my average substantially, I figured I would use this blog now as a frequent ‘diary’ to let you guys know what’s going on. I am currently spending more and more time on my school work, I am trying to treat it like a job, aka around 8-9 hours a day. Now I am not stopping at what is ‘due’, my goal is to actually finish learning all 5 of my textbooks by early March, when the exams are in April, I feel that this will give me the advantage to be able to keep with my DJing, growing OMW Productions, casting and creating Starcraft II events for that beautiful community that I love.

What do you guys have to look forward to? Well I am planning on having a SC2 invitational, both for low level players, and one for pros. I am working daily on my own tracks, planning to release my first LP by the end of February, and for those SC2 fans, I plan on having at least 1 SC2 track (hopefully). Also I am developing OMW Productions to expand into ventures such at the progaming scene, streaming, graphical design, and video production. Anyways, I plan on making this as daily as possible, so please tune in :D

BTW, If I make a Vlog ill just post that instead :D

Quick Update

Alright don't have a lot of time to write as I am currently swimming in notes for my exams, but I would just like to say that my songs are coming along well, and I just got second in a SC2 tournement and won 3$. Yes 3$. If I am to become a millionaire at this rate, I only need to win 333,334 more :D

Finally

Got my hands on massive and its really everything I could ever want with a manual bigger than my ego....

So I was playing around and managed to make a Skrillex kinda baseline, sounds pretty sick, but I still don't know my flavour for dubstep, so how can I put together a song?

End of October!

So got a bunch to talk about. So sit down, have a drink, all that wonderful shit!

First off I want to thank all my loyal fans who were with me from the beginning, who told me I wasn't a terrible DJ back when I was a terrible DJ. All of you who were like I don't like dubstep, but you make me a believer! All of you who helped me get my Starcraft Dubstep Mix to almost 10k views. Thanks to you guys Youtube opt'd me in their new monetize program where I pick the videos I want to monetize. So now I can get some revenue from my hard work, and maybe be able to afford new gear so I can perform live at a BarCraft. So I will try and post more videos more often for your viewing pleasure!

Another THING! Our stream is currently in the application process of becoming partner as we should be able to fall under the new requirements. So you can always help by just tuning in anytime @ twitch.tv/zingking if you follow us it would also help a lot. Anyways due to the fact we are trying to get partner, the members of OMW Productions and I have come to the conclusion that we need to make the stream a more professional, high quality, diverse channel for your viewing pleasure. So we will be implementing a weekly schedule of shows and such, and the schedule will be posted on omwproductions.com and even though most of the final decisions on shows have not been finalized, there is a guarentee that DJ Wilma's Game On will be a definite addition to the new schedule.

Producing is still in the shitter for me, but I am working hard to get a song done.

Much love, DJ Wilma out